I wanted one too

So recently I have noticed that many of my old friends (whom I have not talked to in many years) have their own blogs and this is how they communitcate with eachother, so I thought to myself, maybe I should get a blog. I blog on myspace, I know I am lame, but I have to be so vague because I have no idea who reads it, and right now, no one will be reading this because no one knows about it. I don't know if I will even tell anyone about it. I might just use it for myself, to vent about whatever because I am sure my roommate is sick of hearing me moan on about crap. Most recently my ex from 7 years ago that I might move back to Omaha to be with. Its crazy and probably stupid, but I am still in love with him. Seven years and I can't stop thinking about him, and when I finally met a nice guy in California all I could think about was my ex in Omaha. I think there is something seriously wrong with me. I am going back to Omaha for Thanksgiving, so I should have a better idea of where things stand between us after that trip, until then my mind is going nuts. It is such a big expensive move, and to move for something that might end badly anyway and then I am stuck in Omaha, which I swore I would never move back to. But my stupid heart is telling me to go for it. I just don't know what to do. My love life has always been complicated and filled with broken hearts and bad decisions, why should this be any different? Hell my last relationship ended in domestic abuse and theft, it can't get much worse than that right?