Bored

I am just bored and haven't posted in a few days. I am definitely moving back to Omaha in May. I talked more with my parents and now I really want to go back. My mom isn't doing to well. She will randomly get lost going home and her memory is getting worse. With her history it could be a lot of things, but it still concerns me and I should be there for her. California just doesn't feel like home to me anymore. It was a wonderful place to grow and heal, but I proved what ever I needed to prove to myself out here and I am ready to go home. The holidays are making it worse. This is the first time in years that I can remember wanting to be in Omaha for the holidays. I haven't even really celebrated anything in years and now I want to go back and celebrate with my family. Last year I was just concerned with getting through the holidays sober, now that I have done that I want to go back to enjoying the holidays. I am continually amazed how much getting sober has changed me in ways I wasn't expected. My priorities changed, my attitude changed, my whole outlook on life changed. I've grown up and settled down, sometimes I think I am getting boring, but really I don't want to go back to how I was. I could go out more, but for the most part I enjoy staying in. I enjoy watching a movie or reading a book or sitting on the computer. I have no real desire to go clubbing or pick up men, I have had my share (well more than my share but lets not get into that.) I just want to settle down, but finding a guy to settle down with is hard, especially when you don't go out. Well, I don't know where this is going anymore so I guess I will just end it there.